you deserve....

11.9.2016

darling, your heart may be broken; you may have drowned in your tears and slept through your nightmares wide awake; you may feel as if your body’s no longer yours, that things may not feel the way they used to, that people are no longer who they seemed to be, that you are no longer who you were before; you may feel as if love no longer suits you. but it does. you deserve all the love. you deserve to be loved. you deserve to love, still.

Kai Masa, The Five Rules of Heartbreak

http://thoughtcatalog.com/kaila-trish/2016/09/the-five-rules-of-heartbreak/

As with yesterday, I love this...except the idea of deserving love. I don't question that! But whether or not I deserve love (or believe I deserve it!), that doesn't change the fact that I don't HAVE love. I have definitely slept through my nightmares wide awake. My body is failing me...it certainly feels that it's no longer mine. And of course I'm no longer who I was before. All of this rings so true. But what in the world does this have to do with being deserving of love?!